graedesire

I'm oh so tired and I'm bleeding, inside and out, streaming Healing in solitude, clasping to sound, remembering why it's mesmerising, I'm dreaming The silence echoing, I'm sitting alone rocking, back and forth, back and forth, back to bleeding A parent's embrace, lonliness fades, the wound stops weeping, I'm back at dreaming A smile's facade, a hand as it waves, a touch I can taste, a love as it breaks The colour of rosemary, the grasp of a flower, the violence of a fountain, a garden of strength and doubt A depressing mood, a physical pain, a day of work, a long night's wait, I'm human A becoming tune, a frustration's release, a night

I spread my wings to fly, Floating higher I can touch the sky, creating a stream with my tears, using my remorse to break my fall. Drowning in the pain of the things that save me picking myself up from where I broke counting the pieces of my fragile bones finishing a puzzle, I put me back together on my own (always on my own) using my bare hands so strong I kill a bird to steal his feathers I need his wings to pick me up I mourn his loss and mine but I'm saving me this time (and every other time, I own a human's ignorance, an eye for an eye, and I'll take what's not mine, I'm full of greed and pride, I hunger for your things, I w

Awoken from a slumber A thousand years The cobwebs brushed away A thousand dreams The nails, so many inches A thousand metrics The squeak, the squeal, the hinge, the handle A thousand species The bones unstale, the skin surpassed A thousand whispers The once sewn cotton now misplaced A thousand stitches The first scent, life, infant, meat A thousand births New found glory, another drink, taste awakens A thousand cells Dizziness, it can't be true A thousand lies Crawling, just barely, needs to hide A thousand crusades The cotton now misplaced and torn A thousand stitches The bones breaking, the skin broken, battered, brui

My incriminating hands During the incestuous times I thought that I could betray you I thought that you were mine Then I found a clause behind your cause Never thought you'd be incapable of feeding me But I found the evidence locked away In a chest filled with corruption, atrocity and lust Next to a white dove signed with your signature 'with love' in blood.

Close your eyes you can sleep anytime rest your soul a little more dream in summer, spring, winter and fall let your colour shine bright don't hide from the light spread your wings and fly Up and away, high in the sky Live for a hundred years through my life and the next never hide your personality away take you fear, build strength and play I will give you a kiss then I'll walk away dream of you every night I dream of the day I get to hold you tight I'll cuddle you and kiss you goodnight

Kindred spirit you walked right by silly me decided to cry Every cross you have to bare lies effortlessly like nothing's there So i became a little jealous 'coz every step i took hurt a little more I only had one cross to bare but it hurt too much the burden made my heart so sore Angel brought about the silence opened his heart until it bled dry little me wanted to know why his heart could bleed the same as mine relished the idea that I may be immortal considered it until the thought became undesirable the angel pierced my heart as i wasn't so kind immortality had convincingly plagued my mind Now I stand still and watch my he

Markdowns! What's for sale today? Slab of meat? Piece of lamb? And a little self dignity? What's the cost? What's the price? How much can you afford to lose? A bargain plea Found at the bargain table I'll trade, I'll barter For a fee (never for free) Take a wage Reduce the price Psyching me Crafted, hand made Plastic and fake Frame, album, frame

Your hand must be covering your eyes Because you appear to be blind You should not feel the need to ask For that which I already gave And I hear you speak Although you spoke no words You're asking again Breaking my nerve So what can I offer you today? I'll give you my humility If humilities what you need And I could try and salvage some humanity But the meaning of humanity is kindliness Yet I don't think I'm really that kind kind enough to let a human die My truth you bent, became my lies So neither of these I could give again Thank god, coz they plagued my mind And I'll let you take my love this second But you're rejectin

Chaotic love you give me And I feel it pleading with my soul There are chains of gold, binding me Silver thoughts that are leaded, hide underneath But you decided it was worth  the pain To break the gold chains free You stole the lead, made it melt Let me know it was never a part of me But I remember what its like I fear itll return again And I hear you reassurance, I need it But just make sure you near leave Coz I like this feeling, I heard its love Slipped from my mouth just last week I almost choke, I felt so weak But you held me up, helped me see When you replied with you love me So ill slip back and forth from time to ti

Cut my hair and dye it black I unleash at you, I attack. Devoted subject, infatuated with love Apparently in love with you. Hang up the phone before you answer Because I'm hung up on you too. Captured, ruptured, my broken obsession Not materialistic, obsession my only possession. Manic devotion, I cut you into little pieces In a trance within my manic dream. Affectionate phobia infecting my skin I scratch at my disease, I need more, I watch me bleed. My fond friend, imaginary Intoxicated by your intensity (It's all just imagery) Fighting that feeling of you stabbing me. Passing out on ecstasy Feeding off your energy In a fre